Like a Feather of a Vulture.

Times are changing.

If I look closer, I can see

The greed bleed from the leaves.

The ice is coming soon.

I can feel its fingertips scraping

Against my pale skin.

I am home, back from my stay in

The big city of the south.

This has been my home

But I smell death in every parking lot.

It creeps through the air like a feather of a vulture

That lands next to me as I stare at a stone with my name

And lie in the ground as if it were in the plot.

high eyes.

The world whirls around. Lithium leaks through the walls. I am not able to emancipate from the floor. They are coming close. They look weary through the windows. They see your soul. They want you willingly. The green monsters mindless keeps their kites in the sky. I wake up without. I try to save your soul but I lack strength. They're coming close.

What do you want from me? What do you want for me? Do you want the best for me? Can you be the best for me?  Can you do better for me? Do you want more from me?

I would give it to you. I would breathe the poison for you. I would choose me for you. I would give up for you. I would stay the same for you. I want more for you.

I'm stuck on the sidewalk. The fog falls from the above. I can see their high eyes beaming from above. They're there. They're gleaming into our glass. They see my soul. They want me willingly. I'm looking through green monsters mindlessly hiding behind. I wake up without. I try to save my soul but I lack strength. I'm falling far.

Love Love, or Love lie-low

I figured you out Mr.
I can't let my feelings show
I can't let my feelings out,
Love love, or love lie-low

I'm bitten
I think I have the flu
from what I've written.
I think it's not me, I think it's you

Then, Oh, I regress,
Then, Oh, I digress

I've been confused
I wasn't sure
Is my sense being used
Do I want less, or do I want more

But now I understand you
I will break you down
no more being close at one
then by two being brand new

Confliction of two sides
inside of me, man woman, brain heart
only one abides
now decide on which part

Love love, or love lie-low

If horses had wings, they'd fly here.

Everything feels like lilac shores beneath my feet. My bare skin against the dark street. I lie there with a smile on my face as you feel my heart's pace. I whisper in your ear, "If horses had wings, they would fly here." I never thought we could be and here we are. so far from where we were. Everything feels steady now. And I still ask myself how, how did I miss it before. No one can say what's coming, no one knows what's in store. I feel connected, protected from what I once felt. You tell me you love me without words. My hearts burning, my heart melts. You tell me you love me in breaths. I never been so patient. Oh, I know it's coming, it's coming soon. And, everything else that's due. Oh, it will ensue. With you, I feel like you're enough. I don't need your name, my genes don't need your face. Your love is pure and enough. Enough to carry me to my death. For no matter, disagreements can't fade. My love is still here, stronger than ever. I spill it into the sky. I'm here love. I'm here love. I'm here. I'm not going anywhere. I'm not going. You can push, push, push me out. "I'm not going anywhere. I'm not hurting you anymore," I say into the sky. We have something that I can't explain. What it is, I'll never say. It's something from another place. I dance in purple fields in the purple sky. I tell ya, "Look at me now, I flow." It's where I go, to talk to you. It's more than enough. You smile and tell me you love me. And, I believe you. The vibrations are coming strong. I can feel them in my chest. This was always for the best. This was always for the best. This was always enough. This was always enough for me. This purple place is enough. You are more than enough. You give me all I need. You give me enough.

Don't fly away

You're right there under my fingertips. I feel your energy but I can't touch you yet. She tells me I have a choice between good and bad, and you're the good. It's like a gift of comfort. A blanket for forever. But I cant open you yet. I know we're both frustrated right now and it's making us crazy, sick with emotion. sick. like nausea of hateful things. We don't mean them. I feel like I'm regressing however. My age is getting to me like the rain on a windy day. Or, a word that just won't say. I feel like a baby bird. Everyone babies me and it's making me sick. I just want to have responsibility so I feel my maturity. I know that's coming, but my patience is only as good as my temper. I just want you to know that I still feel the same as I once did. I just don't want to regress into the same egg and I'm trying to find a balance between my mind and my heart. I have the choice now. But, I don't make decisions. I let people decide for me. But if it was up to them, neither road would be right. No, this decision is my own. I've been begging the good energy to give me you and let the other not to incarnate. But I must decide. All I'm asking is, don't fly away. Be patient for me. I have to sort out the contradictions in my soul. I don't want to lose you, I won't lose you. I want the good life. I don't want bad for myself anymore. So, allow the pathway to be clear. Don't leave room for me to be scared and back away. I've been in bad places. I see shadows in every room, closet, hallway. Lead me and hold my eyes so I won't see the ghost. Don't fly away bird. Build me a home and a future in the sky, but please don't fly away.

The ever after in the sky.

I've fallen down today. Don't asked why. I know better. Nothing matters, but I just want you here and now. I pick myself up by telling myself you've been with me in the sky for all of time. You can feel it, too. Last night you spoke to me, and you said, "We're parallels, and he is your opposite." I know we're not apart of the plan, we never was. But that doesn't kill the wanting to hold your hand in this life and I don't want to let go. I want to hold you and I don't ever want to let go. Because, you know me without even trying. And, what you know is effortless. I don't want to fly away, but I have to. I'm not who you think. I'm a strange contradiction. So, hold the image of me close to your heart and I'll meet you in forever. This life is only but a second. Even though, I haven't felt you inside, I feel you with me every day. I'm really having a hard time letting time pass. But I visit you in the sunny field and we spin in happiness as you hold me like you should. The comfort is undeniable there. We sit in silence, yet it is all we've ever wanted. We're going to let each other fly way, I'm fine with that. We're happy in the ever after in the sky.

I won't sink my claws into you.

Love doesn't come easy. Love doesn't come in three days. Love comes with a blue moon and a fire so bright that we have to shield our eyes. Love doesn't wait, no, it doesn't wait. Maybe that's just me. Not anymore. I know now when to let go of something that just won't be. It's a shame because you know just as well as me we've got this. but watch me take flight.


I won't sink my claws into sand. I won't dig my claws into you.